Im sure each one of us has been asked this question of 'what is ur aim in life?' at some point of time... way back in 2nd grade or at the juncture of finishing 10th grade where one has to make a choice of the subjects that will form the base of one's career.. while entering college.. while opting for a Post Grad course... whenever!
I've had a long list of Aims in my life! A teacher, sometimes a doctor (which my friends consider I am ;).. ), to settle down as the big bad CEO of some company someday, or may be even to take things as they come... My aim has never stationed for long at any one of these. But! I have had one peculiar aim and it is one thing that has remained constant for a long time now... Yeah, right from 3rd grade I guess... To become a Housewife!!
It all started when I was studying for some exam way back then, and my sister came up to me and told me what she had noticed in my aunt's house (who happens to be a housewife) after spending a day there..... that was it! I had decided then that I wanted to become a Housewife :) And mind you, I am not feeling bad or repenting for it. Somewhere deep down within, I cherish it!
Today is a world where women seem to be doing wonders and miracles and going head strong with men. I appreciate it and most definately do feel proud about it. When I see the fairer sex as astronauts, autoricksaw drivers, scientists, teachers, CEOs, designers... (and the list is loooonng!) I feel so proud of them.. But like I said, I somehow dont fully associate myself with any of those.
The face is the index of the mind goes the famous saying. And it is so bloody true in my case. I've heard enough of people saying I'll be a good housewife or that kinda material...!
I personally dont find anything wrong about it or guilt troubling me for having such an ambition. The fact that it has sustained over the years itself is a testimony! I always hated anything that needed some grey matter up above, to be used...
Now being done with college, no more of those lovely vacations I've lived with all along... Those were the days anyone would look forward to. And as far as I was concerned, I loved sitting at home and doing nothing! Even the kiddy-games I've played with my cousins were those where I would take on the role of a housewife!! I was so fascinated about wearing a Sari and I would 'drape' myself around with a dupatta!!! Oh ya... It would be incomplete and unfair if I dont mention about my fancy for long hair :)
----> For 17 long years, I had never seen myself with long hair... always had a 'boycut'! But somehow very often I could see myself with nice long hair.. (!!)coloured infact.. in shades of all the skirts I had then! Yeah, I would put on the elastic side of the skirt on my head and flip the rest behind. And there I was.... admiring myself with long tresses in the mirror! To add to it, the Dupatta as the sari so complemented my look of a Housewife! We used to play with 'choppu' and I'd stealthily smuggle rice, dal and veggies from the kitchen.I would cook and do up the tiny house made of the center table (it was a nice rectangular one which could comfortably and cozily house me) or the tent-house which was a more spacious one made of blankets, bedspreads and clothes clips that would support it... :)
Way back then..............
Whats more evident........ need I say anything more?!
Wednesday 23 May 2007
Friday 18 May 2007
???............... !!!
Earlier this year, we had our placements going on in college. Having the eagerness to work, I decided to sit for the placements. As a routine, every company that came presented themselves and those interested were asked to take up a written test followed by rounds of interviews.
During one such aptitude test, I was posed with a simple question (for an essay) apart from the other sets of questions. The question was 'What do you think is the most difficult thing for mankind to change'.
I had my answer to it in just milli seconds.... The first thought that struck me after reading it was "whatever said and done, man cannot reduce the duration of human pregnancy of 9 months and hence it is THE most difficult thing for him". I still dont know how it happened but I thought my answer would be one of the "best fits" for the question posed. I would like to take a look at my point of view...
There have been way too many inventions and innovations on the NASA side of science, medical side, farming, fashion, computers, electronic gadgets, culinary, etc.
BUT.
The one thing that has never changed-the duration of Human Progeny....
During one such aptitude test, I was posed with a simple question (for an essay) apart from the other sets of questions. The question was 'What do you think is the most difficult thing for mankind to change'.
I had my answer to it in just milli seconds.... The first thought that struck me after reading it was "whatever said and done, man cannot reduce the duration of human pregnancy of 9 months and hence it is THE most difficult thing for him". I still dont know how it happened but I thought my answer would be one of the "best fits" for the question posed. I would like to take a look at my point of view...
There have been way too many inventions and innovations on the NASA side of science, medical side, farming, fashion, computers, electronic gadgets, culinary, etc.
BUT.
The one thing that has never changed-the duration of Human Progeny....
"9 months".... 
It has been so structured that a human baby needs that much time for its healthy growth and development. Ofcourse, there are cases of PREMATURITY where the little one bears a higher chance of risk when compared to a baby born full term. Those 9 months (266 days to be precise) is such a deciding factor... It sometimes is a Do or Die factor in the life of the new born.
What can one essentially do inorder to reduce the term of pregnancy? NOTHING! Unless there are complications of blood pressure or diabetes during pregnancy or other such reasons, there really is "nothing" one can do about the duration....... Had there been an option, it would have been done by now!
In today's world, most of the impossibilities are becoming possibilities. By far, many things man considered would 'never change' have been changed over the years, decades and centuries... Yet! Do you think my point of view of "the most difficult thing for mankind to change" would ever change?!!
What can one essentially do inorder to reduce the term of pregnancy? NOTHING! Unless there are complications of blood pressure or diabetes during pregnancy or other such reasons, there really is "nothing" one can do about the duration....... Had there been an option, it would have been done by now!
In today's world, most of the impossibilities are becoming possibilities. By far, many things man considered would 'never change' have been changed over the years, decades and centuries... Yet! Do you think my point of view of "the most difficult thing for mankind to change" would ever change?!!
Thursday 17 May 2007
To have a meal .. All Alone, that is
Loneliness.....
I have been spending a lot of my time in loneliness in the last 2 decades of my life.. Just that it has become more prominent in the recent past.
At some point in time, one definately would want to be left alone. May be in search of tranquility or to reason out something that has been bothering them.. reasons aplenty. The choice being taken by you or the situation may be such that loneliness is thrust upon you.. and I think I associate myself better with the latter option. There is nothing that people at home can do about it, I agree. But having spent so much time just to myself is getting a little too much. I feel the pinch of it almost everyday when I wake up to find the whole house quiet and empty.. It is so painful to make a single cup of tea for myself! Then comes having lunch (I dont eat breakfast because I've been getting up only at 1pm.. so where's the question of 'breakfast' when its already lunch time!) Anyway, one of the saddest parts of being alone at home is to eat single. With probably music or TV as your company... (thank God atleast those are there!) Out here, one has thoughts about having good food with "someone" (left to your imagination) and there is not a soul to even listen to what you have to say......
I prefer having food steaming hot. My mom is working, so she makes food in the morning and leaves for work. I have to re-heat it in the afternoon for lunch. There is this huge factor called "laziness" residing in me... a permanent tenant! So it kind of irks me in doing any activity! Be it bathing or switching the fan Off.. Well, basically to even move my well stationed rear...!
Who doesnt love being pampered......you dont get even an ounce of it when you're alone. Ok so getting back to food... I am a total foodie, I even dream of food! (blessed am I to know to cook pretty decently) Inspite of my love for food being so strong, the BIG FACTOR pulls it all down... I am filled with a 'funny feeling' (realisation actually) that only I have to do things inorder to satisfy my hunger. But it is such a pain to eat all alone and clear up the left-overs... Trust me!
Nothing can beat a lovely meal (home-made) preferably on a banana leaf, with many people around, talking of so many different things, havign a good round of gossip, laughing, playing pranks... hell of a lot more! All these not only add to healthy eating but also bring about a feeling of contentment. To eat this way, I'd prefer eating upto the brim and enjoying a cozy nap in a room filled with lots of people (friends and family) to whom I am close with, all lying around in a state very similar to mine!
I miss it all...............
I have been spending a lot of my time in loneliness in the last 2 decades of my life.. Just that it has become more prominent in the recent past.
At some point in time, one definately would want to be left alone. May be in search of tranquility or to reason out something that has been bothering them.. reasons aplenty. The choice being taken by you or the situation may be such that loneliness is thrust upon you.. and I think I associate myself better with the latter option. There is nothing that people at home can do about it, I agree. But having spent so much time just to myself is getting a little too much. I feel the pinch of it almost everyday when I wake up to find the whole house quiet and empty.. It is so painful to make a single cup of tea for myself! Then comes having lunch (I dont eat breakfast because I've been getting up only at 1pm.. so where's the question of 'breakfast' when its already lunch time!) Anyway, one of the saddest parts of being alone at home is to eat single. With probably music or TV as your company... (thank God atleast those are there!) Out here, one has thoughts about having good food with "someone" (left to your imagination) and there is not a soul to even listen to what you have to say......
I prefer having food steaming hot. My mom is working, so she makes food in the morning and leaves for work. I have to re-heat it in the afternoon for lunch. There is this huge factor called "laziness" residing in me... a permanent tenant! So it kind of irks me in doing any activity! Be it bathing or switching the fan Off.. Well, basically to even move my well stationed rear...!
Who doesnt love being pampered......you dont get even an ounce of it when you're alone. Ok so getting back to food... I am a total foodie, I even dream of food! (blessed am I to know to cook pretty decently) Inspite of my love for food being so strong, the BIG FACTOR pulls it all down... I am filled with a 'funny feeling' (realisation actually) that only I have to do things inorder to satisfy my hunger. But it is such a pain to eat all alone and clear up the left-overs... Trust me!
Nothing can beat a lovely meal (home-made) preferably on a banana leaf, with many people around, talking of so many different things, havign a good round of gossip, laughing, playing pranks... hell of a lot more! All these not only add to healthy eating but also bring about a feeling of contentment. To eat this way, I'd prefer eating upto the brim and enjoying a cozy nap in a room filled with lots of people (friends and family) to whom I am close with, all lying around in a state very similar to mine!
I miss it all...............
Wednesday 16 May 2007
Stella Maris
College has truly been the best part of my life so far.. I hated school n would somehow find the rarest of genuine excuses to take leave :)
Entering the portals of Stella Maris (it is pronounced as MA-RIS and not MARY's) wasnt easy for me. Marks were good enough but still the fact that I belog to the Forward community/caste (better known as an FC .... BULLSHIT!!) I had to wait n wait n wait n wait..... phew! it was so annoying to jus go to college and show my face to the HOD. me havign that look of hello-im here again today-pls give me my interview letter- kind of a look. blah blah blaaahhhh.... whatever crap! it has paid off well... n i mean it. Stella Maris is considered one of the best colleges for women in chennai. Infact it ranks the First n i am very proud of my college!
The first 2 yrs were boring.. nothing interesting happening. The three musketeers (as they called the trio.. kursheed, dhana n me) would endlessly sit on one of the benches (MARATHADI-under the tree) and shamelessly sit n talk of absolutely nothing! I'd be glad had we spoke of something important which would have helped us! First years were we, rating and sizing up chicks who went past us... and the best part is only the three of us would understand the faintest of signs we would pass on :) One smalll move and the rest of us would know who to look at, what to look at, what is different in her, or may i say.. her mini jaatakam would be revealed to us with that one gesture!! It is something i really am not able to describe.... thinking of it all now, i only have a big grin on my face recollecting all the nasty comments we've passed at so many different people!
As days went by, the clique increased from 3 members to 5 (6 actually, but one got married n discon-kursh) anyway.... The new "Fantastic 5" found a new location on campus to carry out our routine marathadi discussions... By now, we had realised college life was not jus to do what we did but something more too... We found ourselves with more n more free time on our hands (courtesy - Bcom Dept was was facing serious staff shortage). there have been numerous days where we would nicely dress up only to come n park our rear on the bench n continue or talks.... :) ohhh i so miss those days... all possible crap we've spoken of, which definately has strengthened the bond between all of us. hajaar sessions of Dumb C (dhana n me would always win coz of our experience in sign lang which was our sole activity prior to the clique expansion), food, cribbing about the college, faculty, girls in class, some poor chick whose fate was to pass by us that day... too many heads would roll!
I am known for my laughter.. lot of names .. chilra kotra madri sirikira, motor.. to name a few. I've fallen flat on the road inside college laughing... literally.. rolling on the floor laughing! my gang, if u read this part u would know what im meaning... nee ingu suhaaamee naan angu suhamaaa..... lolol... "hi! i am ....... by the way i am also ..... " ..lol!
sorry folks, if u didnt understand it, dont even attempt understanding.... it is meant only for my group :P
Group study, vetti pech, bike rides, one-to-one talks, projects, submissions, class tests, copying in class tests, teasing our lecturers n getting them all coi and shy, fights and misunderstandings, a whole lot of fun, trying very deep to understand what the red(all-the-time-mating) poochies were up to, times of sharing good food.. i mean real good food (cooked by me ofcourse!! :D), classes of philosophy, education, movies, we teasing one another..... what not! we've done it all together...
Oh no.... i feel so nostalgic already.. i wanted to wrtie so many other things... about college..
Ayway..... this one is for u girls! Im competely satisfied with my college life... It would never have been so without all of u....
Kudos to dhana, kursheed, maria, ceci and aish........
Love ya all
Entering the portals of Stella Maris (it is pronounced as MA-RIS and not MARY's) wasnt easy for me. Marks were good enough but still the fact that I belog to the Forward community/caste (better known as an FC .... BULLSHIT!!) I had to wait n wait n wait n wait..... phew! it was so annoying to jus go to college and show my face to the HOD. me havign that look of hello-im here again today-pls give me my interview letter- kind of a look. blah blah blaaahhhh.... whatever crap! it has paid off well... n i mean it. Stella Maris is considered one of the best colleges for women in chennai. Infact it ranks the First n i am very proud of my college!
The first 2 yrs were boring.. nothing interesting happening. The three musketeers (as they called the trio.. kursheed, dhana n me) would endlessly sit on one of the benches (MARATHADI-under the tree) and shamelessly sit n talk of absolutely nothing! I'd be glad had we spoke of something important which would have helped us! First years were we, rating and sizing up chicks who went past us... and the best part is only the three of us would understand the faintest of signs we would pass on :) One smalll move and the rest of us would know who to look at, what to look at, what is different in her, or may i say.. her mini jaatakam would be revealed to us with that one gesture!! It is something i really am not able to describe.... thinking of it all now, i only have a big grin on my face recollecting all the nasty comments we've passed at so many different people!
As days went by, the clique increased from 3 members to 5 (6 actually, but one got married n discon-kursh) anyway.... The new "Fantastic 5" found a new location on campus to carry out our routine marathadi discussions... By now, we had realised college life was not jus to do what we did but something more too... We found ourselves with more n more free time on our hands (courtesy - Bcom Dept was was facing serious staff shortage). there have been numerous days where we would nicely dress up only to come n park our rear on the bench n continue or talks.... :) ohhh i so miss those days... all possible crap we've spoken of, which definately has strengthened the bond between all of us. hajaar sessions of Dumb C (dhana n me would always win coz of our experience in sign lang which was our sole activity prior to the clique expansion), food, cribbing about the college, faculty, girls in class, some poor chick whose fate was to pass by us that day... too many heads would roll!
I am known for my laughter.. lot of names .. chilra kotra madri sirikira, motor.. to name a few. I've fallen flat on the road inside college laughing... literally.. rolling on the floor laughing! my gang, if u read this part u would know what im meaning... nee ingu suhaaamee naan angu suhamaaa..... lolol... "hi! i am ....... by the way i am also ..... " ..lol!
sorry folks, if u didnt understand it, dont even attempt understanding.... it is meant only for my group :P
Group study, vetti pech, bike rides, one-to-one talks, projects, submissions, class tests, copying in class tests, teasing our lecturers n getting them all coi and shy, fights and misunderstandings, a whole lot of fun, trying very deep to understand what the red(all-the-time-mating) poochies were up to, times of sharing good food.. i mean real good food (cooked by me ofcourse!! :D), classes of philosophy, education, movies, we teasing one another..... what not! we've done it all together...
Oh no.... i feel so nostalgic already.. i wanted to wrtie so many other things... about college..
Ayway..... this one is for u girls! Im competely satisfied with my college life... It would never have been so without all of u....
Kudos to dhana, kursheed, maria, ceci and aish........
Love ya all
Tuesday 15 May 2007
Bored! thats why blogging
Ahem.. Well, Hi!
This is the first time I am ever blogging.. was recently introduced to this concept called "blogging" where one is jus about free to let the world out there read what one thinks about something..
Being my first blog, I may be crapping big time.. lol.. sorry about that.. but jus thought I'll try my hand at it.
Lately I have been extremely bored at home, not knowing what to do... sit alone all day, online throughout (or atleast sign in andforget about it !), my playlist is "fully loaded" all the time... I engage in a lot of cooking.. I go out, socialise, etc etc etc... basically, I am on a longgg holiday before i join work on 1st June, 2007!
I am thinking a lot i guess.. So many things to write about coming to my head now, ...! Damn, why didn't i do all this thinking durin my exam.. lol..
Anyway, will think of what has been on my mind "the most" and will soon bring forth a so-called "BLOG"
Cheers!
This is the first time I am ever blogging.. was recently introduced to this concept called "blogging" where one is jus about free to let the world out there read what one thinks about something..
Being my first blog, I may be crapping big time.. lol.. sorry about that.. but jus thought I'll try my hand at it.
Lately I have been extremely bored at home, not knowing what to do... sit alone all day, online throughout (or atleast sign in andforget about it !), my playlist is "fully loaded" all the time... I engage in a lot of cooking.. I go out, socialise, etc etc etc... basically, I am on a longgg holiday before i join work on 1st June, 2007!
I am thinking a lot i guess.. So many things to write about coming to my head now, ...! Damn, why didn't i do all this thinking durin my exam.. lol..
Anyway, will think of what has been on my mind "the most" and will soon bring forth a so-called "BLOG"
Cheers!
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